It was love at first sight ❤️
I bought it without even trying it on. I had to have it. I had every intention of wearing it that summer. And you know how it is. life happens.
First, it was folded up on top of a shelf in my closet. It was packed there for a long time and I mostly forgot about it. Occasionally I would think about it and contemplate looking at it. It spent a little time on a hanger nestled among other things that I had; things that I used all the time. I actually even stored it under my bed for a couple years. It was easier to forget about it than it was to know it existed but was unusable.
From 1999 until today it was always something that was theoretical.
But not anymore.
Today I wore a dress that I dearly love but have never had the confidence to wear. ( 1. because it never fit properly and 2. because I just was too nervous/afraid to do it ) Today was a culmination of dreams and hopes and a lot of hard work. I am proud of many things in my life and I know that being this excited over wearing a dress might not seem like too big of a deal and actually, it's not the dress at all that is the main point. It's that I was able to fulfill a goal that I had given up on for years.
8 to be exact.
Every now and then I'd dust off the dream and work for it but life would get in the way and eventually I would give up on it.
But not anymore. Today was an amazing day and I looked beautiful and felt amazing and wanted to encourage you that just because some dreams take a while to come true, it doesn't mean they won't.
Last minute packing is one of those exercises that we've all done a thousand times. I was throwing things together for my BeachBody trip to the Dominican Republic and one of the last things to make the cut was a book I almost didn't even bother bringing. I started reading it months ago but didn't finish because we all know that life gets in the way of our plans. I'm really glad I stuffed it into my carry-on.
My whole life I've been taught that forgiveness is one of the most important concepts in the world. Honestly, when you grow up hearing about something so much, it sort of loses its meaning and impact because I know I've been forgiven for lots of things in my life and I am humbled to be the recipient of grace. But over the last six months I have experienced the other side of forgiveness and being the person who actually forgives someone else is a process I am working through.
It's not just as easy as snapping your fingers and making the past disappear. Forgiveness isn't the same as forgetfulness because no matter how hard we want to erase somethings from our memory, life just doesn't work that way. Forgiveness means I release someone else from the wrongs they did to me. I don't excuse what happened and it's never an admittance that things are okay, but it's the first step in allowing that person to change and by doing so, allowing myself to move forward. I am really releasing myself from anger and hurt and pain by choosing to extend grace and mercy. Forgiveness is for me.
I believe in reconciliation and hope for a future because forgiveness tells me that even though I won't ever forget the past, it doesn't mean the past controls me. Right now I am in a resort in Punta Cana and this trip was supposed to be a celebration of 20 years of marriage for me and Curt. A few months ago I didn't think we both would be here but, God can do some amazing things. And because He has helped me to forgive, it is like a reset in our marriage and life. By forgiving, I extend hope and it doesn't matter what others think because, ultimately, I am the one who is living my life. Forgiveness is my choice because no one can do it for me.
It's crazy because I knew BeachBody could change my life in some ways but I never imagined it would provide a platform for reconciliation. What started out as a hobby turned into a job and has now grown into something that I will credit with saving my family. I am in a place to show grace and forgiveness because I know who I am.
I can see my reflection in the window as planes on the Tarmac remain motionless for a few more minutes. The airport crew is scurrying about, doing a million different things all at the speed of light. The me I see in the window blurs against some of the taller peaks in Glacier National Park as I just sit here and wait.
In an hour I will be on a flight to Minneapolis to spend the night before leaving for the Dominican Republic in the morning. Tomorrow I am going begin to feel the rewards of all the hard work I put in over this past year. I did this. No one gave this trip to Punta Cana to me and it's not charity or a something dependent upon the kindness of others. I earned this and I am both humbled and proud of the job I am doing as a BeachBody coach.
Yes, I have big goals and dreams and ideas for this next year. And I will strategize and plan and collaborate with others to improve and grow my business because settling for status quo is the same as losing ground. But for right now... This very instant... I am going to kick back, relax, and get ready to have the time of my life. I will update you as the week goes on.
And this can be you next year.
I can't believe I started this countdown 63 days ago.
As you can see, there are black marked out squares....Alot more than i wanted. But, thats ok. the point is...i didn't quit. I didn't give up. I kept going. Even though at times, i felt like i was failing. Forget about failure.
If we really TRY, that is a huge success. Regardless of what you’re trying to do – finish college, get in shape, start a business, making a difference, etc. – you have already achieved something by simply putting in the effort.
I started this lifestyle change 1 1/2 years ago. I wanted to be at my goal already. I thought I would be. I have seen people throughout this process that reached there goal way faster than me..and slower than me. But, sometimes things don't go the way we plan or how we plan or in the amount of time we plan.
And thats ok...
You just have to hold your head up and be proud of the progress you have made. For a perfectionist (me 😎) ...sometimes it seems better to quit then to fail. But...that's not true. Instead of taking a bunch of steps backwards, we just need to make the necessary adjustments and keep going!
No step towards your goal is a small one.
I will be heading out in a few hours to meet with a bunch of other beachbody coaches. "Old Tina" would have cancelled the trip because I was too embarrassed to go not being at the goal i set for myself.
I am so stoked to be have earned this trip. To be going. #operationpuntacana is done. I am damn proud of the work I put in. I wasn't perfect, but I never am, so nothing new there! ha ha ha 🤣 I will be going confidently and happily. I will enjoy every damn day because I earned it. I worked hard for it...and I won't let a number on a scale or "missing abs" take that away from me.
I did see lots of changes during the last 63 days...most of them on my mind and heart. I did lose inches, pounds and gained some arm muscles from SO MANY PUSHUPS (still hate Autumn Calabrese😜 )
Why am i sharing this? Because:
👊🏼Im getting stronger.
👊🏼I didnt quit.
👊🏼Im still going.
And if its possible for this 43 year old mama...it can happen for you.
Disclaimer: I am not rich or privileged.
I have no idea what a silver spoon tastes like and every time I've ended up on third base it was because I worked my butt off in batting practice and not because I was born there. I work hard for what I have and am proud to be part of a company like BeachBody, so it bothers me when people mistakenly or intentionally misrepresent what I do or the motivations behind why they think I do them. So, in your best Dwight Schrute voice, please take some time to read these handy facts and I hope this will answer any questions some of you might have about BeachBody!
Fact: What I do is run a grass roots business and that means I had to invest in it. It takes cash to make cash. Since I don't work for anyone else, I don't get paid if I don't succeed and when I offer others an opportunity to work with me it is because I want them to make money, too. This isn't a secret or anything shady and if I am doing my job as a mentor and coach, then my business will grow because the people working with me will be succeeding, as well.
Fact: There are pyramids but they are on the plains of Giza and not BeachBody. This is a claim that I hear from people who are too lazy to actually think about the accusations they are leveling. It's easy to superimpose geometric shapes over things we don't like or understand but what I do is dependent upon my actions and my hard work and my success is a result of my own blood, sweat, and tears.
Fact: This is not an attempt to con people out of their hard-earned cash. I am not living in some mansion, disconnected from the rest of America, tweeting like an idiot while attempting to lie about blatantly obvious things that anyone with half a brain can discern for themselves. My physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual transformation is available for anyone to see without the aid of a press secretary to spin it for me. I am a work in progress, but anyone that has seen my journey..knows this is legit.
Fact: If you know people that have tried this business and it didn't work its because they didn't work.
Fact: I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, and a sister.- although none of these define me. I wear many hats during the course of a day that require me to react to things and events that are out of my hands. It's chaos, sometimes! But this latest hat I've donned is one I am incredibly proud of. It's the one that says 'Business Owner.' It's the one that I control and it takes effort and sacrifice. Some days it is incredibly demanding and challenging. But it is always rewarding because I am my own boss and CEO and I make the decisions. Decisions that are best for me.
... and the decision I am making right now is to politely sign off so I can start packing for the trip to Punta Cana that I earned!!!!
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****This picture is for those of you that think this doesn't work. Started 20 months ago. Might not be an overnight process for ME...but, its working.
Im a 44 year old Mom taking charge of her health and who's passionate about helping you live your healthiest, happiest life.