I don't think they make cards for days like tomorrow.
It was 22 years ago that Curt and I got married and started our life together. We were young and bright-eyed and going to take the world by storm because we thought we could do anything, together. We had very few material things and even fewer cares as we travelled the world together, doing what we loved.
Its hard to think about the last 2 years. Some days, i have no idea how we are going to get through and other days it almost seems like before "D-Day" (discovery day is what its called). But the last two years, the laughs have been fewer. The path has led to unforeseen places. Lives have been changed and dreams have been dashed. Our foundation was broken. Tomorrow is supposed to be an anniversary but how is a person supposed to celebrate something that hurts? There is no point commemorating a day that is a reminder of a broken life. I told you they don't really make cards for days like tomorrow, believe me...I spent quite a few hours looking. Fortunately, tomorrow is not the final word and there is another chapter or two left to spin the tale of a love redeemed and grace shown.
Because even though its been a bit of a roller coaster, the highs are more often than the lows. The smiles are beginning to resurface and hearts are beating again. Our life continues on with a measured pace but there is a bounce in our steps that was once forgotten. Life continues in ways we never intended but joy and hope now come around for longer, more deliberate visits.
Friendship is being restored and cultivated because while much of the past needed to be removed, some of it... the good parts of it... are being replanted and springing to life. And while this will never be a day I feel like throwing a party and celebrating, it can be a day that symbolizes that true love does cast out all fear. Tomorrow is a monument to the greatest sacrifice ever made and also to the one we make every day. We choose to love and forgive and move on because the faith and hope in what we will become is far more powerful than what has tried to define us.
Tomorrow might not be easy but I have hope and our future seems brighter than I thought it could be.
Here are some pics of 2018. And what i love is the smiles are real.
God is good.
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