It was love at first sight ❤️
I bought it without even trying it on. I had to have it. I had every intention of wearing it that summer. And you know how it is. life happens.
First, it was folded up on top of a shelf in my closet. It was packed there for a long time and I mostly forgot about it. Occasionally I would think about it and contemplate looking at it. It spent a little time on a hanger nestled among other things that I had; things that I used all the time. I actually even stored it under my bed for a couple years. It was easier to forget about it than it was to know it existed but was unusable.
From 1999 until today it was always something that was theoretical.
But not anymore.
Today I wore a dress that I dearly love but have never had the confidence to wear. ( 1. because it never fit properly and 2. because I just was too nervous/afraid to do it ) Today was a culmination of dreams and hopes and a lot of hard work. I am proud of many things in my life and I know that being this excited over wearing a dress might not seem like too big of a deal and actually, it's not the dress at all that is the main point. It's that I was able to fulfill a goal that I had given up on for years.
8 to be exact.
Every now and then I'd dust off the dream and work for it but life would get in the way and eventually I would give up on it.
But not anymore. Today was an amazing day and I looked beautiful and felt amazing and wanted to encourage you that just because some dreams take a while to come true, it doesn't mean they won't.
Last minute packing is one of those exercises that we've all done a thousand times. I was throwing things together for my BeachBody trip to the Dominican Republic and one of the last things to make the cut was a book I almost didn't even bother bringing. I started reading it months ago but didn't finish because we all know that life gets in the way of our plans. I'm really glad I stuffed it into my carry-on.
My whole life I've been taught that forgiveness is one of the most important concepts in the world. Honestly, when you grow up hearing about something so much, it sort of loses its meaning and impact because I know I've been forgiven for lots of things in my life and I am humbled to be the recipient of grace. But over the last six months I have experienced the other side of forgiveness and being the person who actually forgives someone else is a process I am working through.
It's not just as easy as snapping your fingers and making the past disappear. Forgiveness isn't the same as forgetfulness because no matter how hard we want to erase somethings from our memory, life just doesn't work that way. Forgiveness means I release someone else from the wrongs they did to me. I don't excuse what happened and it's never an admittance that things are okay, but it's the first step in allowing that person to change and by doing so, allowing myself to move forward. I am really releasing myself from anger and hurt and pain by choosing to extend grace and mercy. Forgiveness is for me.
I believe in reconciliation and hope for a future because forgiveness tells me that even though I won't ever forget the past, it doesn't mean the past controls me. Right now I am in a resort in Punta Cana and this trip was supposed to be a celebration of 20 years of marriage for me and Curt. A few months ago I didn't think we both would be here but, God can do some amazing things. And because He has helped me to forgive, it is like a reset in our marriage and life. By forgiving, I extend hope and it doesn't matter what others think because, ultimately, I am the one who is living my life. Forgiveness is my choice because no one can do it for me.
It's crazy because I knew BeachBody could change my life in some ways but I never imagined it would provide a platform for reconciliation. What started out as a hobby turned into a job and has now grown into something that I will credit with saving my family. I am in a place to show grace and forgiveness because I know who I am.
This morning while I was downloading all my important "stuff" off my dying computer onto a hard drive. I noticed the date of this picture...12 years to the day.
It really does seem like yesterday. I can so clearly see that afternoon in my mind. And all I keep thinking when I look at this..is I remember being annoyed at Simon for messing up my folded laundry AFTER i had already told him no...all because he was trying to make Sophie laugh.
I used to hate the advice from people about "enjoy every moment" and "the days are long but the years are short". "Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory"
Now, i have become THAT mom. I tell people all the time these same words. And its only because my heart breaks to think of all the times that I didnt enjoy the little things. That i was more bothered and annoyed at them tugging at me or climbing on me when i was trying to do something. Or just always being under foot when i was doing really important things...like cleaning, laundry...just stuff.
My kids are 15 & 12 (almost 13) now. And i am desperate to spend any time they will give me. Simon is busy with school, football and friends. Sophie is already at her friends houses anytime she can be. So, I am really trying to be present with them while i still have time.
Here are a few things Im working on...maybe something will jump out at you:
~Get unplugged – turn off your phone, or the computer, or the television just for a little while. No matter how useful they are, trechnology will distract us from being present with our children. Who, by the way, will notice when we are distracted.
~Stop with the "to do list"- realize that what you have accomplished so far is good enough for today. Instead of focusing on getting it all done go and enjoy some time with your children. I must confess as a recovering perfectionist I continue to struggle to put this idea into practice.
~Take the time to really notice your children while they are still with you.- Listen to them when they talk. Really listen. Notice the personalites, the things they love to do. I am trying so hard to ask about their days and really care. If they are talking to me...its important enough to them to share. I try to pop in their rooms while they are "busy"...they might seem annoyed, but the days i don't, Sophie will come out and ask why i haven't checked on her. #heartmelts
~You won't remember it all.-If you enjoy writing use a journal to create a record of your days with your children. Write about the special moments you have with your children; record the funny and insightful things they say; describe the way they looked. One day these journal entries will hold a treasure trove of memories both for you and your children. I used to think..i will never forget such and such...sadly...I am wishing i would have taken the time to write them down.
It is not too late, we can slow down our days and learn how to treasure the precious moments we have with our kids. Its not always easy to change how we do things...but, if its important to us, we will figure it out.
I can't believe that in 37 days, I will be at my first all inclusive resort! I have traveled all over the world as a missionary, but this will be my first time on a vacation, like a real one. All earned from Beachbody! My first of many trips....so excited!
Anyway, In the process of getting ready for this trip, i have been working out and for the most part eating great food. But, I still struggle. Nutrition has always been hard for me, and that is why i LOVE the 3 day refresh...it really gets me on track! If you have been having a hard time getting motivated to work out, really struggling with junk food cravings, or being frustrated by weight that won't budge, Join me! It's a gentle detox to rid your body of toxins, shed some pounds, and get control over your cravings. It's only three days long and you still get to eat! I've had a few people reach out about wanting to clean up their eating, too! So, I will be hosting a 3 Day Refresh group at the end of March. (March31st- April2nd) That will give us a great start for Spring.
A few things you should know:
~ I have done this a few times this past year and i usually lose 3-5lbs. The first time i actually lost 7lbs. But, I want you to know, the point isn't to lose weight, but to really clean up your eating habits, to give your body a little tune-up. I do NOT like using this program as a weight loss fix. It is about fueling your body properly, stopping cravings, and cleansing your system. A jumpstart for you.
~You will eat food - real food - and drink plant based protein drinks. I eat more frequently on this refresh than I do in a typical day! Its not a liquid cleanse. You will be eating food. Just sticking to a food plan.
~ You will be provided with all of the recipes and meal plans to do the program. It is not hard. As long as you follow the program, it will help you.
It's the Perfect time to spring clean your eating! Who's in? Send me a message or comment below and we will get you set up! I have a special link just for you!
Do you remember these videos??? I loved them...(which is probably why i still own them! Ha) And why they are still in great shape. Because they sat on my shelf more than not!
I know I talk all the time about Beachbody and what I do. But, do you understand what you get when you get a BeachBody program through Me (a coach)? What makes me different than just buying videos from the store, amazon or eBay?
I know you can buy any workout dvd from anywhere really. But, if you do, will you actually do it? Most people will say no, some will say yes... but quit after the first week...just like most people going to the gym. Good intentions...
The reason people don't quit, get results, and continue on to workout month after month with me is because of the "coach" aspect. Not trying to sound conceited at all, but it's because of the extra services we (as coaches) offer.
Just to name a few that set you up for success; the super easy meal plans, the portion containers, a cravings buster shake (that also gives you a full days worth of nutrition), plus 30 min workouts that kick your butt while changing your body!
But the biggest piece? Daily Accountability! Yes! You think it isn't what you need but IT IS! Being accountable to a group, to friends, to a community! Having a safe place with motivation, encouragement and no judgement! It's the key to long term success!
So you want success, you want to see change, you have goals, then this is for you! Please join me <3 Summer is coming fast, I want to help you be ready.
You can comment below or send me a PM.
Im a 44 year old Mom taking charge of her health and who's passionate about helping you live your healthiest, happiest life.