Ok...so, I am pretty embarrassed that it has been almost a month of nothing on my blog.
Our family has seen some pretty major things happen and I have some really great excuses and reasons. But, all i can do is say i will do better. Please stick with me, I started this blog and I dont want to let it go to the wayside. So, like everything else in my life...here is to my fresh start. Today, my husband actually wanted to "guest write" my post. So, enjoy <3
I thought I would take a minute to commandeer my wife's blog for a minute so I might add a little outside perspective. Every day I have a front row ticket to Tina's juggling act that involves her business as well as all the things she does for us, as a family. Somedays I can see her joy and determination as she tries to grow things while other days I see the sadness she's terrible at hiding when her coaches are struggling or having difficulties. Most nights we go to bed at the same time but I nod off long before she does because she is still helping people as she lies next to me with her computer in her lap.
Yesterday she invited me to do a workout with her and before I could rationally think about it, I blurted out, "Sure!" I used to work out regularly but haven't done anything recently that would even remotely be considered any sort of physical endeavor. I still didn't think I would have much trouble because I have a long and illustrious history of over-estimating my abilities. (Two days prior to this I had an argument with my teenager daughter about how I could probably make the next olympics if I set my mind to it. Albeit, I was referring to Curling, but that still counts). Anyway, you get my point... I would probably knock 22 Hardcorp out the park.
We both started off strongly and then things got interesting. About 7 minutes in, I was hurting and having conversations in my head with Tony Horton that aren't suitable for this post. I was sweaty and my tummy hurt and I was quite sure I shredded my Achilles, my MCL, and perhaps had even contracted a bout of Scurvy somewhere in between the gorilla crawls and the galactic burpees. I finished the workout but by the end I made the modifier look like an American Ninja Warrior.
And all the while Tina just keep plugging along like the Engergizer Bunny. I saw that I need to make some adjustments in my life and am now considering how to move forward. But I was inspired by my wife and just wanted to give a shoutout to her because she works so hard and inspires so many people that I don't know every day. But yesterday it was my turn. She was patient and helpful and made me feel like I could it. I got to be a client for a few minutes and realized how fortunate her team is.
Thank, Tina... I'm your biggest fan.
When I was a kid, April Fools Day was fun because I could play jokes on people or say whatever I wanted and then brush it off by saying, "April Fools!" It was the perfect day to revel in mischief or be a little ornery and get away with it because whatever I did or said could be excused by declaring two little words.
But I'm not a kid anymore.
When I don't accomplish things, don't get things done or let life get in the way of what I need to do, I don't have the luxury of erasing the day with my magic little formula. Life happens really fast and in a perfect world I would be able to do all my daily errands, work on my business, spend time with my family, complete all my workout goals, and handle any unexpected things that present themselves. But I live in a far from perfect world and there's no way I can 'April Fools' my way into a reset button.
So everyday I move forward and do the best I can with the time I have. A few years ago I would have beaten myself up if I didn't finish everything I needed to do in a day. I would have felt like a failure by not reaching goals or milestones I made for myself. I placed an unhealthy amount of pressure on myself to perform instead of live, and there's a significant difference.
Performance implies I am doing things with the expectation of being judged. I will succeed or fail based on what I accomplish and what I neglect so there is always a weight around my neck. Performing means everything is based on results and the process is irrelevant. I have learned NOT to live like this anymore.
Living is a fluid existence that stems from who I am and the journey I have embarked upon. Yes, I work really hard to reach the goals I set BUT the emphasis is on how I get there and am I being true to myself and not pretending for the sake of appearances. Life is messy and living means harnessing all that messiness and running with it! Success is waking up every morning and pressing forward without any negative pressure and failure is not an option because I will not adopt that attitude. We don't need a "next monday" or a "new month" or even a "new year". We just need a new mindset.
Because what I have learned on this journey is that the only way i really fail, is if I quit.
Im a 43 year old Mom taking charge of her health and who's passionate about helping you live your healthiest, happiest life.