True story: Yesterday, in the middle of the week I had to run to the tire shop. As i was sitting there, waiting for them to put the new tires on the car, I felt an immense wave of personal satisfaction. Is it because I love that rubbery smell of tires surrounding me? Nope. Is it because I am a sucker for burnt coffee and 8 month old issues of Field and Stream? Sorry, try again.
I am happy because I was able to pay for these tires before I bought them. I am smiling while I write this because I was able to actually conduct business on a routine week day at the shop from my mobile office, AKA my phone, while I waited for my new tires as I made money that will go towards Christmas presents or whatever else might come my way. Tires are expensive and I am happy I was able to buy them and not have to charge them or skip a week's worth of groceries. I did this.
My journey with BeachBody has been satisfying because I think I represent a large portion of people reading this. I am not filthy rich and my lifestyle is nothing close to extravagant. I don't jet off to tropical locations or have a boat, 5th wheel, plane, or pet black panther. I don't shop at organic stores and I love curling up on the couch at the end of the night to watch The Walking Dead or New Girl (yes... both). I don't think you and I are that different.
When I started working with BeachBody I just wanted to make enough bank to cover my Shakeology and any other orders I might want. But after really jumping in and deciding that I wanted to do this as my job, I am actually contributing to my family income in real and practical ways. I JUST BOUGHT FREAKING TIRES!!!!!! How cool is that, especially this time of year when cash is at a premium due to the holidays.
Anyway, I just wanted to share this cool story and maybe encourage some of you who might be sitting on the fence and unsure of whether or not you want to go all in. You wont regret it and it would be my honor and pleasure to partner with you.
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Spoiler alert: Life is not a movie or a novel. We don't get commercial breaks and we can't DVR the parts we want to experience while deleting the rest. Sometimes things work out perfectly for a few minutes or hours or even days, but more often than not we end up reacting to whatever is thrown our way and out of our control. I am sitting here, trying to pack my stuff for 2 different events that have been in my calendar for a year...and i have feelings of disappointment, fear, excitement, joy, anger, anxiety, anticipation and disappointment..(oh, did i mentiion that already?)
This time last year I was enjoying the grand experience of being at my first Beachbody Summit. I soaked everything in and couldn't wait until this year where I knew I would be recognized on stage for my awesome achievements.
This time 2 years ago, I finished my first marathon in Missoula, ending months of agonizing training so I could fulfill a dream. I began thinking ahead to this year's marathon and how I would improve my time.
This time last year life was going well and my family was enjoying the beginnings of a relaxing summer. I anticipated this summer and the traveling we would do.
But then a funny thing happened: Reality exploded all around me...
I am attending my second Summit next week without having advanced in the organization as much as I wanted. I am not bringing my team with me like I had imagined and I am not at the level I just KNEW I would be. I worked hard this year but still came short of so many goals.
I am running a half-marathon tomorrow because an injury took me out of my training. I wanted to do a full so badly and even though the spirit is willing, the flesh is weaker than it used to be. It wasn't supposed to be like this.
I am entering this summer after the hardest year, personally, I've ever had. There is no traveling or real vacation but we are going forward in spite of difficult circumstances. And after all of these, I want to share a little secret with you: We are the authors of our own stories in the sense that we get to decide how to fill in the pages when the curveballs come. We only succumb to the pain and sadness and despair when we stop trying. Just because my "timeline" is off...it doesn't mean i won't hit all these goals. It just means down the road...and i am ok with that.
Failing is not an option because it's an attitude and not a fact.
Every day I wake up and continue to press on is another victory for me because I know what I have come through and where I'm going. My life is defined not by theme music but by the character I display. I don't have endorsements but I do have the love and support of people who love and care for me. And I am not a failure because I know who I am. I can do this.
... I already am.
I know that I talk a lot about the weight I have lost with beachbody. We all hear and see ALOT of focus on people's physical transformation and I just wanted to remind you today that its also about how we feel.
I went to my first conference last year with beachbody and I remember feeling so nervous about being surrounded by all those "fitness freaks" and "beach bodies". I honestly almost didn't go because i was not feeling like i belonged there. I wasn't to my goal. I hadn't reached my "ideal" weight. I still was on my journey and i felt embarrased Well, I can tell you my experience... I was surrounded by people of all shapes and sizes with huge hearts ❤ and a drive and passion to help others. It was so incredible to be surrounded by people that were just proud of their journey and happy to be there. There was no "ideal" person. The one thing we all had in common is we made it our job to help others live healthy lives!
I remember crying at one point because fear had almost got me to quit. To give up. And to be honest, i probably would have if I hadn't been working on my inside transformation this whole time. This company has taught me to be a strong confident person. I love this company and what they stand for - people, health, the inner journey....
As i am getting ready to go to Punta Cana in less than a month, I am not fighting those same fears and feelings anymore. Which is huge. Im not gonna lie, I am still working on becoming my best self...but not for comparing or anything like that. I just want to feel my best. <3 And that isn't a size or weight or anything. Its just me, rocking my swimsuit and enjoying the beach with my friends. It shows me how much I have grown over this last year. I have no desire to try and create some rockhard body because I'm going to a resort with all these amazing coaches.
What I want is to be my most confident self and keep the focus on being soooo grateful for this trip I've been given and that i get to enjoy it with some of my closest friends.
So, on that note, I am off to find the perfect suit....and Im not even dreading it!
This morning while I was downloading all my important "stuff" off my dying computer onto a hard drive. I noticed the date of this picture...12 years to the day.
It really does seem like yesterday. I can so clearly see that afternoon in my mind. And all I keep thinking when I look at this..is I remember being annoyed at Simon for messing up my folded laundry AFTER i had already told him no...all because he was trying to make Sophie laugh.
I used to hate the advice from people about "enjoy every moment" and "the days are long but the years are short". "Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory"
Now, i have become THAT mom. I tell people all the time these same words. And its only because my heart breaks to think of all the times that I didnt enjoy the little things. That i was more bothered and annoyed at them tugging at me or climbing on me when i was trying to do something. Or just always being under foot when i was doing really important things...like cleaning, laundry...just stuff.
My kids are 15 & 12 (almost 13) now. And i am desperate to spend any time they will give me. Simon is busy with school, football and friends. Sophie is already at her friends houses anytime she can be. So, I am really trying to be present with them while i still have time.
Here are a few things Im working on...maybe something will jump out at you:
~Get unplugged – turn off your phone, or the computer, or the television just for a little while. No matter how useful they are, trechnology will distract us from being present with our children. Who, by the way, will notice when we are distracted.
~Stop with the "to do list"- realize that what you have accomplished so far is good enough for today. Instead of focusing on getting it all done go and enjoy some time with your children. I must confess as a recovering perfectionist I continue to struggle to put this idea into practice.
~Take the time to really notice your children while they are still with you.- Listen to them when they talk. Really listen. Notice the personalites, the things they love to do. I am trying so hard to ask about their days and really care. If they are talking to me...its important enough to them to share. I try to pop in their rooms while they are "busy"...they might seem annoyed, but the days i don't, Sophie will come out and ask why i haven't checked on her. #heartmelts
~You won't remember it all.-If you enjoy writing use a journal to create a record of your days with your children. Write about the special moments you have with your children; record the funny and insightful things they say; describe the way they looked. One day these journal entries will hold a treasure trove of memories both for you and your children. I used to think..i will never forget such and such...sadly...I am wishing i would have taken the time to write them down.
It is not too late, we can slow down our days and learn how to treasure the precious moments we have with our kids. Its not always easy to change how we do things...but, if its important to us, we will figure it out.
Im a 44 year old Mom taking charge of her health and who's passionate about helping you live your healthiest, happiest life.