Yes, it is what it is.

So...i had to come share something not very flattering..but a total NSV for me.  A win in my book. 

For years...I have not been in pictures with the kids. I was too embarrassed. Too insecure. Too Uncomfortable.  Too fat...blah blah blah. I always made sure to be the one taking the pictures. And now..when we look at the photo albums (yes, actual pics😜) I am barely in any of them..and if i am, I'm in the back or its just my face. If i HAD to be in a picture, i  made sure i was strategically placed or that someone else was... I was the queen of reasons/excuses.

I will never forget one time looking at the photo albums with Sophie and she asked where i was...how come i wasn't around. Why didnt i spend time with them when they were little...😳 It totally broke my heart. I hated that i put my insecurities first and I never gave it a second thought what my kids would think when they looked at those pictures.

So, today...we took some fun/dumb pics of our memories for our future selves...and i made sure to be in them. In my mind, i was pretty proud of myself.  When we came in the house..i noticed of course my flaws...the cellulite still on my legs. As someone that has been on this healthy journey for the last 2 years and that works out at least 5 days most weeks...im not gonna lie..at first i almost deleted the picture. I was upset and was just like..seriously??? I don't want evidence of me like this... It just didn't feel like it was a good picture of the hard work i have put in. The 45+ pounds i have lost...the 40+ inches i have shed. My legs are so strong now..and when i looked at the picture, i didn't see strength. 

And then..i remembered that talk with Sophie.  I want them to look back at today and see i was with them. That my very strong muscular legs with a little extra love... was with them...

That i was present...cellulite and all <3
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#weareaworkinprogress
#NSV

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